So long time no post, am I right? It's finally the summer break and I've been having a great time with my friends and family. I got into the high school of my dreams and am proud to say that I graduated grade eight with a medal for making honor roll both terms. I know I'm sounding cocky but for me, it's a big deal as I've always struggled with math and it brought my overall average down so much. This year I worked harder and tried to get help where I needed it. The last two months of school were a whirlwind of excitement, irritation, fun, and sadness. I was part of stage crew in a play that my school was putting on and helped manage props and even broke the fourth wall during the play with my friend who played scar (The play we did was the Lion King!:)). This is where I get to the juicy stuff. This boy who we'll call kitten, since he played Mufasa in the play, had grown up so, so much in the past year and I finally started to notice him around the end of the year (Of course I only noticed him then, I suck, I know, and we're going to different high schools!!!;( ). So every now and then I'd spot him acting and would really, really look at him and give him my utmost attention and see just how adorable and charming he is.
It didn't become a full-blown crush until the week of the play. Kitten was being oh so cute and I got to spend more time around him and really notice him. He is hard to get to know as he's quiet and not really friends with any girls and I'm also a bit shy and hard to get to open up, so you could imagine the struggle I was going through. I was helping with the makeup for the play and I got to do his makeup and make him look even more like a little kitten! I get so giddy just thinking about it, and I can imagine just how lame and obsessed I sound. After the play was over I told my friend about the crazy strong feelings I have for this boy and she helped me and gave me someone to talk to about the whole thing because I'm already a chatterbox or a rambler as you can see from all I've already written, so you can imagine just how hard it was for me when I had no one to talk to about my crush. just a quick side note, I didn't not have anyone I could talk to I just don't like to tell anyone my secrets and never EVER (Except now) tell anyone when I have a crush. On the last full week of school, all the grade eights went on two grad trips, the first one being downtown and the movie theater and the second being Niagra Falls. Two (irritating?) girl's we know flirted like CRAZY with this one boy who is like the alpha of the boy pack or ring leader and he is practically in love with these girls two who, don't even get me started I could write a whole novel about the three of them, or should I say Thing1, Thing2, and Thing3. Anyways where ever Thing1 and Two go, Thing3 always follows and since Thing3 is the ring leader of all the boys in my class, all the boys follow him and are friends with him. They're like this little annoying exclusive group that just irritates me to know end. Especially since Thing3 is a major jerk. Anyways me and my trusty friend I told you about earlier both have crushes on two boys in the group/Kitten and Thing3. It sucked. Anyways the first field trip was a complete blow because kitten didn't seem interested in me at all, and was always with Thing3 and the girl's who just flirt, flirt, flirt (Even with Kitten sometimes!). Me and my friend ended up being sad for the rest of the trip which is sad and slightly annoying to me because some 'stupid' boys we may not even give a second glance in the future managed to make us feel crappy on a day that was supposed to be happy and fun, and I'm personally disappointed in us for letting the boys ruin that day for us. I know this all sounds real dumb as they're just boys and all but they don't feel like just boys to us, yeah know? The second field trip was a lot better as I managed to try and block Kitten and the rude Thing3 out and just enjoy myself with my friends like I should've done on the first field trip too. Anyways the field trip was fun even though Thing1 and Two sat pin straight with their hands pulling them up from their seats for two hours straight (I promise I'm not even exaggerating) to talk to Thing3 and the other boys. Our last stop on the Niagra falls field trip was a horror house called Fear Factor I believe. I got to hold Kitten's hand, interlocked fingers and all as we were in the same group for the horror house. I had to go in front as it's like a maze and all the other boys even though they're like a foot taller than me and my trusty friend, hid behind us since they were too scared to go in front (So I went in front) and I feigned being scared so I could hold Kitten's hand. It was great. Tons of other girls I know are OBSESSED with Kitten so I went and talked to them about it and we freaked the frick out together. Anyways it had become and still is my personal goal to be his friend, and yeah know, flirt a lil maybe, but we invited him to this get together we were having on the last day of school and we bonded a tiny bit and played tackle football (With a tennis ball so not football but I can't think of anything else to cal it). Then we saw the fireworks together and even though one of my friends flirted with him I was still able to somewhat cozy up to him during the fireworks. I've been to his house during this summer break and have played video games with him and think that I'm finally getting to know him better. I don't want to jinx it though! Okay the next paragraph I'm going to write is about what happened yesterday and I just ah. I can't even begin to describe how I feel.
So yesterday we went to my friend's house and played video games and since one of my friends I'm more comfortable around was there I was more my usual silly self. I think kitten liked that since I joked with him more and he seemed more comfortable and like he was having more fun around me. I wasn't being a bad sport I promise! but kitten could tell I wasn't enjoying myself since we'd been playing video games for like three hours straight and kept on suggesting we do something else that I'd enjoy and Yes, he may not have been enjoying himself either and was trying to use me as an excuse to do something else but I'd like to believe it was because he cared about me. I personally didn't really mind all that much that they were playing video games as long as Kitten was there. Later we went to the pool and a friend we saw had a soft football which me and the boys all played tackle football with. I was covering Kitten and got to hug and get piggybacks from him while he picked me up and lamely tried to free himself, which me and my friend that's close with him both agree was true as he was hardly attempting to get free so me and my friend both think he was enjoying it which makes me feel absolutely giddy to just think about. Kitten picked me up bridal style and dunked me and wrapped his arms around my legs when I went for piggybacks, to hold him off from getting the ball of course, but he seemed to be having just as much fun as I was and all the things he did are things I never thought he would since he's not seemingly comfortable around girls. It was honestly amazing and I hope we're the same next time we hang out because it was so fun and I felt that Kitten and I were so much more comfortable around one another like I'd previously said. I knowKitten probably doesn't like me the way I like him but simply being his friend is enough for me.
Okay so this is definitely the longest blog post I've ever written and I bet no one will read it but if someone does then, hey! thanks for taking the time to read my stupid girly ramblings. I know this whole thing is kinda stupid but I wanted to write it all down. I hope everyone's been having a great summer so far and I'll list some songs I've been listening to that help me 'deal' with Kitten and that I can personally relate to in case any of you need some good new music to listen to or have a major crush as well.
Out Of My Leauge-Fitz and The Tantrums
This Is What You Came For-Calvin Harris, Rihanna
Into You-Ariana Grande
Boys Like You-Who Is Fancy, Meghan Trainor, and Ariana Grande
Day Dreamin-Ariana Grande
Signing out-h
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